Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Let's just be honest here... my life lately has featured all flavors of meltdowns.

There's the
and MeltdownWhileDriving

I've even had the CallAFriendWhileSobbingAndScreamingMeltdown. Not pretty.

It is something that frankly I am terribly embarrassed of. It seems like I am taking this move kicking and screaming. My friend told me yesterday when another one of her friends had to move away to Ohio, she simply didn't answer the door when the movers came.  Just couldn't.  That's how I feel too.  I. Just. Don't. Want. To. Leave. I. Just. Don't. Want. To. Leave.I. Just. Don't. Want. To. Leave.  And the emotion is exhausting. 

Last week, after a TalkingOnThePhoneMeltdown, I came in the house to find Kami doing her homework. Plugging away.  I said to her, "Kami how are you doing this? How are you so strong?" And she looked me in the eye and said,

"I want the best for my dad." 

That was it. 
7 simple words .
And faith like a child.

Pray I can be stronger.

2 Wonderful Responses:

Leslie Jenkins said...

Wow! What an awesome thing to hear her say! I think it seems easier for kids to move because they have their parents with them and feel their world is safe and secure. I know how hard it's going to be to leave your first family (dad, mom, Kim)and all of your friends and "your" safe/secure world. Praying that God will help you feel peace and see the exciting things He has planned for you and all of the people He needs you to touch. You have an amazing faith and family and I know He will continue to use you to do great things for His glory! :)

Leslie Jenkins

Mandy Rose said...

Ok, so I hope you don't think that I am totally creepy by commenting on this. :) I requested to be your fb friend after you called me last week and I thought "she will for sure think I am one nutso momma. Ha! Somehow I stumbled upon your blog through your fb and I went "AHHH SHE BLOGS!" I blog too! It sounds like you had such a great support system in Tulsa and I know you are nervous about moving to Carterville, but I promise you...it is great here! I am not sure if you decided to move to Twin Lakes or not...but either way...I would love to meet up when you come here! I will be praying that God will give you peace about the move! I can tell your family will be a wonderful addition to our town!